Mandy Moore was looking forward to moving on.
The This Is Us star stuns on the covers of Modern Luxury magazines Michigan Avenue, LA Confidential, Capitol File and Jezebel. In her accompanying cover story, Moore opens up about her desire to get married again after her past marriage to Ryan Adams, whom she has accused of psychological abuse. Adams has denied Moore's and other women's abuse allegations.
"I was very hungry. I was not apprehensive at all [to marry again]," Moore says. "I knew that past situations didn’t define me and didn't even define what love or marriage or relationships or any of that had to be. My experiences in the past were singular to that."
"I knew, even before I met Taylor [Goldsmith], I would love again, and I would get married again, and I would have a family. And all the things I always hoped for and wanted, I still believed were out there and possible," she continues. "Not to say that I didn't have my own grief and pain and trauma to tend to, deal with, overcome and heal from, but it never affected how I feel about love."
Moore, who was married to Adams from 2009 to 2016, tied the knot with Goldsmith in November 2016. In a New York Times piece published in February, the actress claimed that in addition to being psychologically abuse, Adams was controlling in ways that ultimately hurt her music career. Now, she says she's ready to make music again.
"I feel like it's time. I feel like I'm on the precipice of something that's undeniable to me, popping back into a large part of myself that I think has been dormant -- or I've ignored, for multiple reasons -- for many years," she shares. "It just feels comfortable, like, 'Oh yeah, I know how to ride a bike. I've done this before.' It’s very soul-fulfilling. It's nourishing a part of me I think I've ignored for a really long time."
The 35-year-old actress also says she's ready to shake things up. "For quite a number of years, I was really trying to redefine myself; I was hungry for a challenge that people weren't willing to just give me permission for. I was like, 'I know I can do more than just be America's sweetheart.' That's certainly an aspect of who I am, but that's not all I am," she expresses. "We all contain multitudes."
Moore couldn't be more grateful for where she is now.
"Life is a roller coaster. I know this is an extraordinary time, and I am present," she says. "I'm literally devouring every morsel of it and appreciating it for what it is because I remember when times did not feel the same. I just want to take stock of all of it and do what I love. This moment isn't gonna last forever. I want to really dig my heels in while I can."
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